Dil Se Mere

It's Oh So Quite

Maaeri

Ab Na Ja

Taare Zameen Par

Dekho inhein yeh hai onss ki boodein
Patto ki goodh mein aasamaan se khude
Angdai le phir karwat badal kar
Nazuk se moti hasde phishal kar
Kho na jayee yeh
Taare Zameen par

Yeh toh hai sardi mein
Dhoop ki kirane
Uthre jo aangan ko sunehara sa karne
Maan ke andhero ko roshan sa karde
Thiturti hatheli ki rangat badal de
Kho na jayee yeh
Taare Zameen par

Jaise aankhon ki debiyan mein neediyan
Aur neediyan mein meetha sa sapna
Aur sapne mein mil jaye faristha sa koi
Jaise rango bhari peechkari
Jaise Thitliyan phoolo ki pyari
Jaise bina matlab ka pyaara rista ho koi

Yeh to asha ki lehra hai
Yeh to umeed ki seher hai
Khushiyon ki nehar hai
Kho na jaye yeh
Taare Zameen par

Dekho raaton ke sene pe yeh to
Jhil mil kisi lao se uge hain
Yeh to andiyan ke khushbo hai bhago se beh chale
Jaise kaanch mein chudi ke tukde
Jaise khile khile phoolon ke mukhde
Jaise bansi koi bajaye pedo ke taale

Yeh to jhoke hai pawan ke
Hai yeh gungroo jeevan ke
Yeh to sur hai chaman ke
Kho na jayeee
Taare Zameen par

Mohale ki ronak galiyan hai jaise
Khilne ki zid per kaliyan hai jaise
Muthi mein masam ki jaise hawaein
Yeh hai buzurgo ke dil ki duyaaein
Kho na jayeee
Taare Zameen par
Taare Zameen par

Kabhi baatein jaise dadi naani
Kabhi chale jaise num num pani
Kabhi ban jaye bhole saawalo ki jhadi
Sanate mein hasi ke jaise
Sune hoton pe khushi ke jaise
Yeh to noor hai barse gar pe kismat ho padi
Jaise jhil mein lehar aye chanda
jaise bheed mein apne ka kandha
jaise manmauji nadiya
jhaag udaye kuch kahe
jaise baithe baithe meethi si jhapki
jaise pyar ki dheemi si thapki
jaise kaanon mein sargam
hardam bajti hi rahe
jaise barkha udati hai bundiya…
kho na jaaayeeee yehhhh
Kho na jaayee yehh
kho na jaayee yehh
kho na jaayee yehhhh..

Good Feeling

Today is so different. I am very comfortable and feeling refreshed. Its been a while that I had such a feeling. There was the time when every evening I use to feel so refresh. I had all the time in my life. Now, the days go so fast. This week I didn't even realize that how fast the week got over.

I keep smiling for no good reason. After a long time I came back to my life.

Life has so much to give you. You don't live for others but for yourself. There are so many things that you like and that you want to achieve. You know that you got that thing in you. You have that special gife to be so different and to work so differently. This one thing is the motivation for you. You know everytime when you bring that different tough in your work and it brings so much happiness to you.

You don't do stuff just for the sake of doing it. You bring life into your work. When I was doing my internship in India, I was noticed by one of the director of the firm. He always looked so special to me. I always wanted to work under him. I never knew that such small dreams do come true. He looked at my work and kind of impressed. I think it was more of my sincerity than my work. But whatever, he asked me to work for him. And I got that opportunity that I was looking for. I learnt a lot working under him. He is very creative. I didn't know that untill I saw him doing rendering for one of the presentation drawing. He gave me all the opportunity to learn. I was lucky. I always am lucky. Something made him say that 'someday, I will be a great person and that I will forget about him'. I think I can never forget about him. He is the first person who looked at me the way I am and found the true me. I saw a father figure in him.

Those are something which you carry with you. You always meet many people in your life. Not everyone are able to know you. Even the very close friend of you don't really know much about you. But there are those few people, who can see you.

In the first year of my undergrad, I got an award for the design studio. It was something special for me. I tried to bring a different concept into my design. What I learnt about myself is that I have an ability to bring something from inside. Most of us look around and get inspired. Everyone need to get start from somewhere. We all look for some example. But I try not to look into existing things. I try to think and not look into examples b'coz I believe that if you look at the examples, you get baised in your ideas.

I like to start from the scratch. Just give me sometime and leave me alone with my sketchbook and the design problem. I believe that I can be very innovative.

I want to live my life as an Architect and not so much as a Planner. It is hard in US to get a job of an Archtect b'coz I got my degree from India. I want to go back to India so that I can be an Architect. I did planning to get to know the remaining part of the story of the design process. It was a good journey here studing urban planning. I enjoyed taking 6 courses and working as a TA for two classes in the same semester. It drived me crazy many times. But I found that I work more efficiently and creatively when I am under pressure.

I literally enjoyed all the three semester here. It was only in the last semester that I didn't work much and even delayed my thesis. I don't know whom to blame. It was just a bad time for me and I hope that everything get fine. Things do get fine with the time.

I was always lucky to had good friends. Although, some of my best friends are no more with me. Some of them left because I stopped talking to them, others decided not to talk to me. We all do mistakes. We are here in this world because we are not perfect. No one of us are really a bad person as such. We all are victim of time.

Kiska Rasta Dekhe

Dil Hai Ke Manta Nahi

Dil hai ke manta nahin
Mushkil badi hai rasme mohabbat
Yeh jaanta hi nahin

Oh, dil hai ke manta nahin
Dil hai ke manta nahin
Yeh beqaraari kyoon ho rahi hai
Yeh jaanta hi nahin
Ho, dil hai ke manta nahin
Dil hai ke manta nahin

Dil to yeh chaahe har pal tumhe hum
Bas yunhi dekha kare
Marke bhi hum na tumse judaa ho
Aao kuch aisa kare
Mujh mein sama jaa, aa paas aa jaa
Hamdam mere hamnasheen

Dil hai ke manta nahin
Teri vafaaye, teri mohabbat
Sab kuch hai mere liye
Tune diya hai nazraana dil ko
Hum to hai tere liye
Yeh baat sach hai, sab jaante hai
Tumko bhi hai yeh yakeen

Dil hai ke manta nahin
Mushkil badi hai rasme mohabbat
Yeh jaanta hi nahin

Oh, dil hai ke manta nahin
Dil hai ke manta nahin

by Faaiz Anwar

This is how it is

Why do we spend our time
thinking about someone who may not even care anymore

Why we wait
and wait
and try to keep our memories as fresh as possible

Why we feel so connected
when we know its all gone

Why we feel that someone will understand
and as if its all gonna be fine the next morning

Why we don't except that
it was a mistake

and if not
then why are not we together

why did we meet at it first place

why why why

there are no one to answer any of these whys
and still we keep asking why this, why that,

This is how it is
when you are rejected

Kahi Door Jab

Abhi Na Jao Chhod Kar

O Paalanhare

My Cute Bhanji

Woaw! So much work

I was sleeping for almost two months and now when I woke up, all I see is work. So much of pending work! It's driving me crazy. The problem is with my sleeping habits. Before I use to work late and so use to get sufficient time to do the stuff. But now, I sleep early around 11. I get up around 8 and try to study but it doesn't work. I ended up not doing much in the morning and then I have to go to work. I need to through my morning laziness away and focus at least 2 hours into my thesis to finish it. My thesis chair might be wondering that why this guy didn't sent me any updates from last three weeks. Hehe!! Can't help it....I will take one more week before I send him some progress.

Yeah, I came to know that I will be able to stay in US once my OPT gets over and for the time I might be waiting for my H-1. Actually, if I get my company applied H-1 for me on the 1st April'09, there are chances for me to get the acknowledgment letter with in a month and once I get the acknowledgement letter, I will be able to say here for the time I will be out of my OPT period until I get my H-1 in October. I need to get the acknowledgment letter before 15th May'09.

Somewhere Over the Rainbow

Somewhere over the rainbow
Way up high,
There's a land that I heard of
Once in a lullaby.

Somewhere over the rainbow
Skies are blue,
And the dreams that you dare to dream
Really do come true.

Someday I'll wish upon a star
And wake up where the clouds are far
Behind me.
Where troubles melt like lemon drops
Away above the chimney tops
That's where you'll find me.

Somewhere over the rainbow
Bluebirds fly.
Birds fly over the rainbow.
Why then, oh why can't I?

If happy little bluebirds fly
Beyond the rainbow
Why, oh why can't I?

music by Harold Arlen and lyrics by E.Y. Harburg

Jack Sparrow

Don't feel like writing anything and so posting the sketch I did few days back.

Awesome Food!!

Today, my sister invited some of her friends and so she is preparing lots of delicious food. I am helping her. We are almost finished with preparing most of the stuff. Hmmm

Its been a long time and I really like puri and chole, gulab jamun, and dhai bada....

I actually wanted to invite some of my friends as well. But it was my sister's plan and so I thought may be some other time. One of my friend is getting bored and I was thinking to invite him. But its ok. He will anyway will not come..............

Forget about it

hmmmm.........I was about to write something.......but leave it.....I am not in a mood! But it was something positive and good.......may be some other time.....

Victim of Time

It's in your mind
and this world has nothing to do with it

You have to fight
with no one but yourself

It is better to be aloof
than to take a refuge in someone

Crazy Little Thing Called Love

Somebody to Love

Yaad Kiya Dil Ne

Din Dhal Jaye

Skybird

Maa

Eddie Vedder: Long Nights

Have no fear

For when I'm alone

I'll be better off than I was before

I've got this light

I'll be around to grow

Who I was before

I cannot recall

Long nights allow me to feel...I'm falling...I am falling

The lights go out

Let me feel

I'm falling

I am falling safely to the ground

Ah...I'll take this soul that's inside me now

Like a brand new friend

I'll forever know

I've got this light

And the will to show

I will always be better than before

Long nights allow me to feel...I'm falling...I am falling

The lights go out

Let me feel

I'm falling

I am falling safely to the ground

Somewhere over the Rainbow

Into the Wild

I am watching this movie once more..........this time alone

Relax, Take it Easy

I agree...................

We can be Happy

Happiness doesn't come with
money, or anything

It is something you get when you seek for it

You got whole a lot of reason to be happy

the most important one is that
if you are happy, you can make others happy

Try to consider your problems as small as possible
and see how much others are suffering in this world.
you will find yourself always better off

Take some courage and stop focusing on your little issues
and make this world a better place

This is your society
your people
your kind
and even others
consider them and
feel love and compassion

Stop looking troubled
and get some confidence within youself
to be some help

You are capable of doing many things
and if you are not doing anything than
you actually is wasted
and yeah, you are wasting everything

Falling Leaf

Another falling leaf
got separate from the branch
to dry.....

Remember
those days when
you enjoyed those sunshine, rain,
and the fresh wind from the southeast

Now you got to leave

Remember
those happy moments when
the sun and the sky played hide & sick

Its all over

Remember
when few strange birds
who came to your house and
sang a song of hope

You will miss them all

You can float if you are lucky
and if it rain

you can fly if you are lucky
and if it wind

But you got to know that
you are falling
and that you will dry

you may still enjoy the floating and the flying
but you know that you got separated
and so you will be carried away
to the place where everyone is stranger

Still in your few last moments
you can feel the soil
and smell it
when you are laying on it's shoulder

but you got separated
from the world you liked
and so, it will all be an imagination
and you will dry up with not doing anything
but simply waiting

Falling leaf
you got nothing

No I won't let you leave my love behind

Everybody's talkin' at me
I don't hear a word they're sayin'
Only the echoes of my mind

People stopping, staring
I can't see their faces
Only the shadows of their eyes

I'm going where the sun keeps shining
Through the pouring rain
Going where the weather suits my clothes
Backing off the north east wind
Sailing on a summer breeze
And skipping over the ocean like a stone

No I won't let you leave my love behind
No I won't let you leave my love behind

Something left Incomplete

I am so tired tonight....
got few drinks at my friend's place

If I close my eyes, I can easily fall into sleep
but I don't want to sleep

something is left incomplete
it's been incomplete from last few days

when I wake up in the morning
I don't feel like starting another day

but we have to pull the life

the only reason
to carry on is that there are others
who are living for you

life ask for more sacrifices

You Know It

When things goes wrong
and everything looks out of your control

You have to listen to your inner voice

Though outside you got this fear
that it will become apparant
and that you will get into some big trouble

and you stop listening to yourself
that you still will be ok
and that just let it go
and wait

All you need to do is
stop questioning and finding answers
b'coz there are no right answers to certain questions

Just let it go
and wait

I don't like Mika for this song

Happy Ending

Good to know Flaws of Being Left-handed

I always felt very bad about about my handwriting. I know that I am left-handy but still was not convience that I can't write better. When I start reading about left-handed flaws, I felt very comfortable. I realize that it is not my mistake but the system. In our society we write from left to right. Lefties always struggle writing that way. Its because there hand get congested and their angle of writing also changes because of less space available for the proper movement of hand. For lefties, writing right to left is natural. I initially got so much annoyed that I will have to write left to right all my life even though I am gonna screw my handwriting. But with the time I stop worring about my handwriting and start typing than writing most of the time. It still hurts, but we have to draw a line to our problems.

I was below the class average when I was kid. There was something about reading textbook which I found very hard to focus. My mom use to read textbooks for me. Although, no body had any idea that why I didn't like to study. I was poor in literatures. Didn't like history. I liked maths and physics though. But I do lot of calculation mistakes. I always asked myself that why even after doing most of the calculations correct in my exams, I get low marks. I never noticed that it was my writing problem. I use to miss write certain numbers and that is why get wrong results. I didn't know that and so start getting depressed that I am a poor student. Infact, I lost my confidence many time. I can relate this problem with dyslexia but not sure.

Most of the people are confident only because of their memory itself. I would have enjoyed that part at least. But I got poor memory. I don't know if it relates to my left-hand thing. Science always felt short to answer many questions related to your brain functioning. More so, for left-handed brain functioning. Although it is certain that left-handed uses more of their right-side of mind, the problems we face in our daily life is not explained. You can guess, I am bad with names, details, and numbers.

Still there is something about me which stands me out in the crowd. The few things which I like but not really an expert in are drawing, singing, writing, dancing, playing guitar, and field hockey. I believe that if I get a chance or I put some effort to learn any of these activities from a learnt person, I can be very good at them. Oh, another quality I have is that I am good at following leasons and is very sincere. because I have to spend more time than an average guy in my studies, I always get less time and find it hard to manage other activities. I want to reach to that point where I dont have to worry a lot about my work and then I could spend time on what I really like and enjoy.

It is always surprising that people notice me a lot and always see something in me. But I still feel that I lack few normal skills which drive me crazy most of the time when I am in public.

It is for sure that I am not abnormal but different. I have lot of simpathy for my types (specially when they are kids and not aware about what is so different about them).

Famous Left-handed

The only few guys in there right mind

I stopped sketching from quite sometime. I liked it since I was kid though. This sketch I did last month.

Kill The Hidden Monkey

There is a hidden weakness in everyone
We pretend to be strong unless the monkey take you over

This monkey is not yours
He reside in you and is against your happiness

We always try to avoid him
but he keep waiting for the time when he can take a lead on you

When you are in need
He reminds you of him and act like he is your friend

No, he is not a friend
Never let him comeout

He can destroy everything
Morethan you, he attacks those whom you love

Since he resides in you, he know you well
he knows that how you will be tortured

Kill him
He don't deserve any simpathy

Kill the monkey and you will be better off

State of mind

Lost Faith

It always looks so dramatic
until it become a reality

We keep our respect high
and the dignity.....

for which we work and sacrifice

but someday it all goes
and leave nothing but a shame

when someone start looking at you
as you appear and as you make sense

they start loosing faith in you
that is why we don't like people judging

they feel that you can do better
and that you are over-reacting

if there is no string which binds you to this world
then this is the time you like to say goodbye

but you become a joke
b'coz you look like a joker

This joker runs openly
and make you realize that you can only be a slave

your half is sleeping and the other half is not interested in anything
like you are an incomplete person

How hard it is to loose someone
you will never know even if you have lost someone
b'coz if you know, you will dare to loose anyone anymore

Life is holding broken pieces together
and keep trying to fix them all
unless you get another crack

this is how it is
when someone lost faith in you

The Wall

life is full of confusion
we walk to the path we already know is not taking us anywhere

we try to convince ourself that this is what we need
we creat our own world, although these is no such thing

we get addicted
we surprise
and until it all become so real

on your way is something you already thought about
that is why you fear
you know that its gonna happen
but you try to get some confidence by not accpeting it

you listen only what you want to
and dont really what you should

everything which matters in real
become so unreal and kind of burden

but it all has to go some day
b'coz its the law of nature
it changes
everything changes

there will always be time you will enjoy
there will always be time when people will love you
there will always be reasons to be happy
until you break the wall

the wall holding you from going back home
the wall keeps everyone away from you
the wall stops you from working
the wall stops people from loving you

the wall should fall, not you
b'coz you cannot be like this forever

My lost Spirit

So many moments keep reflecting back in my mind
They appear like a live image

How do I remove them from my life?
How do I convince my heart?

There are so many things to do in a life
Why then I see that there is no other choice

Can someone knock into my life and shake the still moments
Make alive my lost spirit
The spirit which brought me here from the place I could hardly see the world

Like a pet, living with its feeling rejected
Being a part of your life when you are alone
But dependent on you
Still get love even when not needed b'coz they can't complain

Reflecting back into my life
I only want to remember the time when I was kid

With the time I learned
That a proper guiding force is very important in a life
To grow healthy and naturally
One has to learn to respect his own life
And others as well to grow in this society
And also need to understand that
Nothing last for a long time
If you don't keep things right