Good Feeling

Today is so different. I am very comfortable and feeling refreshed. Its been a while that I had such a feeling. There was the time when every evening I use to feel so refresh. I had all the time in my life. Now, the days go so fast. This week I didn't even realize that how fast the week got over.

I keep smiling for no good reason. After a long time I came back to my life.

Life has so much to give you. You don't live for others but for yourself. There are so many things that you like and that you want to achieve. You know that you got that thing in you. You have that special gife to be so different and to work so differently. This one thing is the motivation for you. You know everytime when you bring that different tough in your work and it brings so much happiness to you.

You don't do stuff just for the sake of doing it. You bring life into your work. When I was doing my internship in India, I was noticed by one of the director of the firm. He always looked so special to me. I always wanted to work under him. I never knew that such small dreams do come true. He looked at my work and kind of impressed. I think it was more of my sincerity than my work. But whatever, he asked me to work for him. And I got that opportunity that I was looking for. I learnt a lot working under him. He is very creative. I didn't know that untill I saw him doing rendering for one of the presentation drawing. He gave me all the opportunity to learn. I was lucky. I always am lucky. Something made him say that 'someday, I will be a great person and that I will forget about him'. I think I can never forget about him. He is the first person who looked at me the way I am and found the true me. I saw a father figure in him.

Those are something which you carry with you. You always meet many people in your life. Not everyone are able to know you. Even the very close friend of you don't really know much about you. But there are those few people, who can see you.

In the first year of my undergrad, I got an award for the design studio. It was something special for me. I tried to bring a different concept into my design. What I learnt about myself is that I have an ability to bring something from inside. Most of us look around and get inspired. Everyone need to get start from somewhere. We all look for some example. But I try not to look into existing things. I try to think and not look into examples b'coz I believe that if you look at the examples, you get baised in your ideas.

I like to start from the scratch. Just give me sometime and leave me alone with my sketchbook and the design problem. I believe that I can be very innovative.

I want to live my life as an Architect and not so much as a Planner. It is hard in US to get a job of an Archtect b'coz I got my degree from India. I want to go back to India so that I can be an Architect. I did planning to get to know the remaining part of the story of the design process. It was a good journey here studing urban planning. I enjoyed taking 6 courses and working as a TA for two classes in the same semester. It drived me crazy many times. But I found that I work more efficiently and creatively when I am under pressure.

I literally enjoyed all the three semester here. It was only in the last semester that I didn't work much and even delayed my thesis. I don't know whom to blame. It was just a bad time for me and I hope that everything get fine. Things do get fine with the time.

I was always lucky to had good friends. Although, some of my best friends are no more with me. Some of them left because I stopped talking to them, others decided not to talk to me. We all do mistakes. We are here in this world because we are not perfect. No one of us are really a bad person as such. We all are victim of time.