No more complains

Today is not like just another day. I have more energy. In last few days, I am doing better. I go running. I also started playing tennis. I sleep on time. I don't feel boring and lonely. I wakeup on time (mostly). I got new phone (loving it). Got pretty much control over myself. Got full-time job finally. I got enough and so I can't complain.

This is my fifth time recovery from few months of bad time. There are few thing you dont have control over. I always think that it is over and it will not comeback. But, now I believe that it may come back. This time, I really was about to make a wrong decision about myself. But very soon I realized, it is not me, just the phase which I need to fight everytime it come me.

Upset

I am upset from last evening. I know the reason. These feelings are something which one should not be very much attached to. They come very strong even when you dont want them and they go when you are in need for them. I think feelings dont go to extreme when you are in some bond. And even if they go, their are few options. One of friend told me that it is good to let the feelings go sometimes by not responding to them. He was very true. I guess, we all go through different phases in life. When you are emotionally down, you get what you want even in someone who may not be appropriate for you. I only wish that there must be some solution to temporary feelings. Or we simply try to ignore our feelings as much as possible, for we know that it will last only for few days. We must get strong. Strong enough that our feelings dont let us down.

On the other side, I dont understand that what else should we give importance in our life then if not to the feelings. What is that life with no feelings. I see that even animals got feelings. Somebody said it true that as long as we got this body, we cant escape from this cycle. And for the most part we dont know what happens after we leave this body. If there is god, he must have answer to this question. And not only answer but also guide for how to get there. For somebody said direct all you emotions and feelings towards him, you will never regret. I do know that I atleast find peace when I take refuge in him.

Misidentification

coming soon..:-)

You React to Your Physical Problems

Many times you dont find yourself within your own control. I mean, I sometimes over react to certain small issues. Later I think whats wrong with me. It is mostly my physical thing causing me to react most of the times. I can now understand that we should not take others unexpected reaction very seriously. It is different thing though if someone is keep repeating the same reaction. In that case, it will be intentionally. I often over react when I didn't get sufficient sleep. It is always good to take time off, when such thing happens. And if it is not possible to take time off, at least keep it in your mind that you may be over reacting and so control. Control!!

Repeating Thoughts

There are so many repeating thoughts which keep bothering you. Yesterday, I realized that we should not worry about them because they will anyway will comeback to your mind the next day. I mean if I am keep stricking with a thought about some incomplete work, I start bothering about that. Even when I know that I have no time for that particular work, I simply start worrying about it. I now can see that I don't need to worry b'coz it will come back and may be the next time I will have time for it. I guess, i am clear about it. Thinking this way can help me to stop worrying about the stuff I remember all the time. Peace!