Wednesday, December 17, 2008
Sunday, December 14, 2008
Thursday, December 4, 2008
Aaj Andhera Hai
Kiski telash karta hai
Kon hai jo tera hai
Tu adhura tha adhura hai
Or pura hai sirf chand
Kab tere sath koi tha
Kab tere sath koi reha ga
Ye jo jiwan hai
sirf ek pal ka nesha hai
Or fir der tak andhera
Koi aawaj aye t0 tu rook na
Koi paas bulai to tu ne ja
Ye sab eek pal ka ujala
Or fir ghar par andhera hai
Aaj koi deep nahi hai
No koi chand
Bus andhera hai
andhera hai
Kon hai jo tera hai
Tu adhura tha adhura hai
Or pura hai sirf chand
Kab tere sath koi tha
Kab tere sath koi reha ga
Ye jo jiwan hai
sirf ek pal ka nesha hai
Or fir der tak andhera
Koi aawaj aye t0 tu rook na
Koi paas bulai to tu ne ja
Ye sab eek pal ka ujala
Or fir ghar par andhera hai
Aaj koi deep nahi hai
No koi chand
Bus andhera hai
andhera hai
Wednesday, October 22, 2008
Architects hit Hard by Financial Crisis
Here is the link to this article. Will talk about later. Busy busy!!
http://archrecord.construction.com/news/daily/archives/081015abi.asp
http://archrecord.construction.com/news/daily/archives/081015abi.asp
Monday, October 13, 2008
Knowledge & Lust are enemy
The senses, the mind, and the intelligence are the stronghold of lust. First one must bring the senses under control and directly destroy this lust. Senses are superior but more than senses the mind is and more than mind the intelligence is and more than the intelligence the individual conciousness. Thus, steady the mind by self realization and conquer these form of lust.
Thursday, September 18, 2008
No more complains
Today is not like just another day. I have more energy. In last few days, I am doing better. I go running. I also started playing tennis. I sleep on time. I don't feel boring and lonely. I wakeup on time (mostly). I got new phone (loving it). Got pretty much control over myself. Got full-time job finally. I got enough and so I can't complain.
This is my fifth time recovery from few months of bad time. There are few thing you dont have control over. I always think that it is over and it will not comeback. But, now I believe that it may come back. This time, I really was about to make a wrong decision about myself. But very soon I realized, it is not me, just the phase which I need to fight everytime it come me.
This is my fifth time recovery from few months of bad time. There are few thing you dont have control over. I always think that it is over and it will not comeback. But, now I believe that it may come back. This time, I really was about to make a wrong decision about myself. But very soon I realized, it is not me, just the phase which I need to fight everytime it come me.
Thursday, September 11, 2008
Upset
I am upset from last evening. I know the reason. These feelings are something which one should not be very much attached to. They come very strong even when you dont want them and they go when you are in need for them. I think feelings dont go to extreme when you are in some bond. And even if they go, their are few options. One of friend told me that it is good to let the feelings go sometimes by not responding to them. He was very true. I guess, we all go through different phases in life. When you are emotionally down, you get what you want even in someone who may not be appropriate for you. I only wish that there must be some solution to temporary feelings. Or we simply try to ignore our feelings as much as possible, for we know that it will last only for few days. We must get strong. Strong enough that our feelings dont let us down.
On the other side, I dont understand that what else should we give importance in our life then if not to the feelings. What is that life with no feelings. I see that even animals got feelings. Somebody said it true that as long as we got this body, we cant escape from this cycle. And for the most part we dont know what happens after we leave this body. If there is god, he must have answer to this question. And not only answer but also guide for how to get there. For somebody said direct all you emotions and feelings towards him, you will never regret. I do know that I atleast find peace when I take refuge in him.
On the other side, I dont understand that what else should we give importance in our life then if not to the feelings. What is that life with no feelings. I see that even animals got feelings. Somebody said it true that as long as we got this body, we cant escape from this cycle. And for the most part we dont know what happens after we leave this body. If there is god, he must have answer to this question. And not only answer but also guide for how to get there. For somebody said direct all you emotions and feelings towards him, you will never regret. I do know that I atleast find peace when I take refuge in him.
Wednesday, September 10, 2008
Monday, September 8, 2008
You React to Your Physical Problems
Many times you dont find yourself within your own control. I mean, I sometimes over react to certain small issues. Later I think whats wrong with me. It is mostly my physical thing causing me to react most of the times. I can now understand that we should not take others unexpected reaction very seriously. It is different thing though if someone is keep repeating the same reaction. In that case, it will be intentionally. I often over react when I didn't get sufficient sleep. It is always good to take time off, when such thing happens. And if it is not possible to take time off, at least keep it in your mind that you may be over reacting and so control. Control!!
Thursday, September 4, 2008
Repeating Thoughts
There are so many repeating thoughts which keep bothering you. Yesterday, I realized that we should not worry about them because they will anyway will comeback to your mind the next day. I mean if I am keep stricking with a thought about some incomplete work, I start bothering about that. Even when I know that I have no time for that particular work, I simply start worrying about it. I now can see that I don't need to worry b'coz it will come back and may be the next time I will have time for it. I guess, i am clear about it. Thinking this way can help me to stop worrying about the stuff I remember all the time. Peace!
Thursday, August 28, 2008
If you know about me
Here is some of the preditions for last few months which came true. You may know that I am not lying if you were with me at that time:
You may wish to understand more about your internal psychological workings, and this is a good time to find out without fearing great upsets.
This influence signifies a period of very deep inward transformation that will be reflected in changed ideals, goals and many other aspects of your world view.
You will find it necessary to question very deeply many beliefs you have held as a matter of course all your life. You may become disoriented as you discover that you have been living under illusions. But at least you will not be alone, for this is one of the influences that affect everyone in one age group at about the same time. In fact, the need to change your ideals may come through your peer group.
If you begin psychotherapy now, which is quite possible, you should not choose a therapist of your own age. While he or she might understand you, he cannot give you a different perspective.
Whatever you choose to do, it would be a good idea to study a subject that will give you greater understanding about your life. Astrology, the occult, metaphysics or even depth psychology might serve this purpose. But don't get lost in abstractions: make sure that what you learn has real consequences in your everyday life, because you have great needs there that should be met. Also your studies should give you very deep understanding. Nothing superficial would help you at this time.
This influence produces very intense experiences in your emotional and personal life, and it will test your innermost psychological workings. You may be forced to dig down deeper inside yourself than you have ever done before to get the answers you need at this time.
On the psychological level, this influence dredges up past behavior patterns that may be quite inadequate for the present. Or it may bring up memories from the past that somehow affect the present. Driven by compulsions and irrational drives, you may do things that you would not do if you were entirely clear about yourself.
It takes extremely clear perception to see exactly what is happening.
This influence also may signify a relationship in which you feel fascinated by the other person, even though you feel that the relationship is bad for you. You seem unable to get away. Actually you are experiencing a repressed aspect of yourself through the other person.
You may find that considerable tension builds up between you and those closest to you, and there may be some very emotional confrontations.
You may wish to understand more about your internal psychological workings, and this is a good time to find out without fearing great upsets.
This influence signifies a period of very deep inward transformation that will be reflected in changed ideals, goals and many other aspects of your world view.
You will find it necessary to question very deeply many beliefs you have held as a matter of course all your life. You may become disoriented as you discover that you have been living under illusions. But at least you will not be alone, for this is one of the influences that affect everyone in one age group at about the same time. In fact, the need to change your ideals may come through your peer group.
If you begin psychotherapy now, which is quite possible, you should not choose a therapist of your own age. While he or she might understand you, he cannot give you a different perspective.
Whatever you choose to do, it would be a good idea to study a subject that will give you greater understanding about your life. Astrology, the occult, metaphysics or even depth psychology might serve this purpose. But don't get lost in abstractions: make sure that what you learn has real consequences in your everyday life, because you have great needs there that should be met. Also your studies should give you very deep understanding. Nothing superficial would help you at this time.
This influence produces very intense experiences in your emotional and personal life, and it will test your innermost psychological workings. You may be forced to dig down deeper inside yourself than you have ever done before to get the answers you need at this time.
On the psychological level, this influence dredges up past behavior patterns that may be quite inadequate for the present. Or it may bring up memories from the past that somehow affect the present. Driven by compulsions and irrational drives, you may do things that you would not do if you were entirely clear about yourself.
It takes extremely clear perception to see exactly what is happening.
This influence also may signify a relationship in which you feel fascinated by the other person, even though you feel that the relationship is bad for you. You seem unable to get away. Actually you are experiencing a repressed aspect of yourself through the other person.
You may find that considerable tension builds up between you and those closest to you, and there may be some very emotional confrontations.
Astro
I wonder how someone can predict about me so close to the reality. I was reading my forcast for this year. It is so close to what has happened and what is likely to happen now. It is so complex and how someone can write it so precisely. I am complete surpised. There is no room for not to believe in Astrology. The only thing is you should know the right person who possess complete knowledge of astrology. If you end up meeting someone who is simply using his/her instinct, you may be disappointed. I believe that the prediction I looked at is more than 80% accurate and this is more than enough for me to believe in it as there is no 100% in anything.
I am always curious to know about myself and my surrounding. This curocity takes me to places where not many people would like to go. I take chances. I ready do. By now I can see how I am composed and how is things set for me. Now next I need to know is how I can control it. I am looking forward to it.
I am always curious to know about myself and my surrounding. This curocity takes me to places where not many people would like to go. I take chances. I ready do. By now I can see how I am composed and how is things set for me. Now next I need to know is how I can control it. I am looking forward to it.
Monday, July 21, 2008
I am in love anyway
Dil kahai tu nahi
Me kahoin bus yahin
Dekhon to dikhe nahi
Lekin yahin
Or fir kahin nahin
Bus is pal yahin
Or fir kahin
Ya fir kahin nahi
Is dil ke karib
Ya kahin nahi
Bus yahin
Or fir kahin nahi
Dekhon to dikhe nahi
Soochon to har kahin
Tu hai bhi ya nahi
Ya tu hai mai nahi
Love is in the air.......
Sunday, July 20, 2008
Kahin to..........
Kahin to.. kahin toHogi wo,
Duniya jahan tu mere saath hai..
Jahan mein, jahan tu,
Aur jahan, bass tere mere jazbaat hai,
Hogi jahan subah teri,
Palko ki, kirano mein,
Lori jahan chand ki,
Sune teri baahoin mein..
Jaane naa kahan wo duniya hai,
Jaane naa wo hai bhi ya nahi,
Jahan meri zindagi mujhse,
Itni khafa nahi..
Lyrics: Javed Akhtar
Movie : Jaane Tu…Ya Jaane Na
Tuesday, July 15, 2008
Saturday, July 5, 2008
Righteous
I sometimes wonder. Wonder that we are such as self-maintaining, self-operating machines. We keep performing some work all the time. The machine need fuel. We eat, drink. The machine need to perform some work. This machine should constantly do some productive work otherwise it starts rusting. Our mind try to escape from his duties. When we talk about mind control, we are trying to say that we can control our mind. Who is we here? That means we are not mind. Mind is just a part of our body. Or it is the mind who is saying that control me/help me.
When I say I, does it mean my mind or me as everything including every part of the body? I sometimes feel that there are two voices which I hear from within. One is always rite and the other one is confused. The other one keep me engage into something non-productive such as thinking about nothing, or stopping myself from working, making me feel lazy, doubting, etc.
We can easily discriminate between productive and non-productive thoughts. All we need is some courage to strenghten the productive one and kill the non-productive one. We can do that. We can see many around us who have done this. I need to do meditation and payer. I need to bring more decpline in my life. The results are not that important than the way chosen to perform the task. We should focus on each and every step not worrying about the end results. If there is time limitation, we should limit our objectives rather than using shortcuts to finish the task. It is always good to deliver quality work than quantity work with low quality.
I will continue on this later.........
When I say I, does it mean my mind or me as everything including every part of the body? I sometimes feel that there are two voices which I hear from within. One is always rite and the other one is confused. The other one keep me engage into something non-productive such as thinking about nothing, or stopping myself from working, making me feel lazy, doubting, etc.
We can easily discriminate between productive and non-productive thoughts. All we need is some courage to strenghten the productive one and kill the non-productive one. We can do that. We can see many around us who have done this. I need to do meditation and payer. I need to bring more decpline in my life. The results are not that important than the way chosen to perform the task. We should focus on each and every step not worrying about the end results. If there is time limitation, we should limit our objectives rather than using shortcuts to finish the task. It is always good to deliver quality work than quantity work with low quality.
I will continue on this later.........
Friday, July 4, 2008
Tired
I am so tired today. My eyes are burning. But my mind is not ready to sleep. God, give me some sleep!!
Wednesday, July 2, 2008
Vaishnav Jan to tene Kahiye_Mahatam Gandhi
One who is a Vaishnav, feels and understands the pain of others
Does good to others, especially to those who are in misery
Does not let pride enter his mind,
A Vaishnav, honours and praises the the entire world
Does not criticize or say bad things about anyone
Keeps his words, actions and thoughts pure
O Vaishnav, your mother is blessed
A Vaishnav sees everything and everyone equally,
rejects greed and avarice
Respects women especially some one else's wife as his mother
His toungue may get tired, but will never speak lies
He does not even touch someone else's property
A Vaishnav does not succumb to worldly attachments
Who has devoted himself to staunch detachment from worldly pleasures
Who has been addicted to the elixir of the name of God
For whom all the sacred places of pilgrimage are in the mind
Who has no greed and is not deceitful
Who has renounced lust and anger
The poet Narsi would like to see such a person
By whose virtue, his entire family gets salvation
Does good to others, especially to those who are in misery
Does not let pride enter his mind,
A Vaishnav, honours and praises the the entire world
Does not criticize or say bad things about anyone
Keeps his words, actions and thoughts pure
O Vaishnav, your mother is blessed
A Vaishnav sees everything and everyone equally,
rejects greed and avarice
Respects women especially some one else's wife as his mother
His toungue may get tired, but will never speak lies
He does not even touch someone else's property
A Vaishnav does not succumb to worldly attachments
Who has devoted himself to staunch detachment from worldly pleasures
Who has been addicted to the elixir of the name of God
For whom all the sacred places of pilgrimage are in the mind
Who has no greed and is not deceitful
Who has renounced lust and anger
The poet Narsi would like to see such a person
By whose virtue, his entire family gets salvation
Monday, June 30, 2008
Sunday, June 29, 2008
Taare Zameen Par
Dekho inhein yeh hai onss ki boodein
Patto ki goodh mein aasamaan se khude
Angdai le phir karwat badal kar
Nazuk se moti hasde phishal kar
Kho na jayee yeh
Taare Zameen par
Yeh toh hai sardi mein
Dhoop ki kirane
Uthre jo aangan ko sunehara sa karne
Maan ke andhero ko roshan sa karde
Thiturti hatheli ki rangat badal de
Kho na jayee yeh
Taare Zameen par
Jaise aankhon ki debiyan mein neediyan
Aur neediyan mein meetha sa sapna
Aur sapne mein mil jaye faristha sa koi
Jaise rango bhari peechkari
Jaise Thitliyan phoolo ki pyari
Jaise bina matlab ka pyaara rista ho koi
Yeh to asha ki lehra hai
Yeh to umeed ki seher hai
Khushiyon ki nehar hai
Kho na jaye yeh
Taare Zameen par
Dekho raaton ke sene pe yeh to
Jhil mil kisi lao se uge hain
Yeh to andiyan ke khushbo hai bhago se beh chale
Jaise kaanch mein chudi ke tukde
Jaise khile khile phoolon ke mukhde
Jaise bansi koi bajaye pedo ke taale
Yeh to jhoke hai pawan ke
Hai yeh gungroo jeevan ke
Yeh to sur hai chaman ke
Kho na jayeee
Taare Zameen par
Mohale ki ronak galiyan hai jaise
Khilne ki zid per kaliyan hai jaise
Muthi mein masam ki jaise hawaein
Yeh hai buzurgo ke dil ki duyaaein
Kho na jayeee
Taare Zameen par
Taare Zameen par
Kabhi baatein jaise dadi naani
Kabhi chale jaise num num pani
Kabhi ban jaye bhole saawalo ki jhadi
Sanate mein hasi ke jaise
Sune hoton pe khushi ke jaise
Yeh to noor hai barse gar pe kismat ho padi
Jaise jhil mein lehar aye chanda
jaise bheed mein apne ka kandha
jaise manmauji nadiya
jhaag udaye kuch kahe
jaise baithe baithe meethi si jhapki
jaise pyar ki dheemi si thapki
jaise kaanon mein sargam
hardam bajti hi rahe
jaise barkha udati hai bundiya…
kho na jaaayeeee yehhhh
Kho na jaayee yehh
kho na jaayee yehh
kho na jaayee yehhhh..
Patto ki goodh mein aasamaan se khude
Angdai le phir karwat badal kar
Nazuk se moti hasde phishal kar
Kho na jayee yeh
Taare Zameen par
Yeh toh hai sardi mein
Dhoop ki kirane
Uthre jo aangan ko sunehara sa karne
Maan ke andhero ko roshan sa karde
Thiturti hatheli ki rangat badal de
Kho na jayee yeh
Taare Zameen par
Jaise aankhon ki debiyan mein neediyan
Aur neediyan mein meetha sa sapna
Aur sapne mein mil jaye faristha sa koi
Jaise rango bhari peechkari
Jaise Thitliyan phoolo ki pyari
Jaise bina matlab ka pyaara rista ho koi
Yeh to asha ki lehra hai
Yeh to umeed ki seher hai
Khushiyon ki nehar hai
Kho na jaye yeh
Taare Zameen par
Dekho raaton ke sene pe yeh to
Jhil mil kisi lao se uge hain
Yeh to andiyan ke khushbo hai bhago se beh chale
Jaise kaanch mein chudi ke tukde
Jaise khile khile phoolon ke mukhde
Jaise bansi koi bajaye pedo ke taale
Yeh to jhoke hai pawan ke
Hai yeh gungroo jeevan ke
Yeh to sur hai chaman ke
Kho na jayeee
Taare Zameen par
Mohale ki ronak galiyan hai jaise
Khilne ki zid per kaliyan hai jaise
Muthi mein masam ki jaise hawaein
Yeh hai buzurgo ke dil ki duyaaein
Kho na jayeee
Taare Zameen par
Taare Zameen par
Kabhi baatein jaise dadi naani
Kabhi chale jaise num num pani
Kabhi ban jaye bhole saawalo ki jhadi
Sanate mein hasi ke jaise
Sune hoton pe khushi ke jaise
Yeh to noor hai barse gar pe kismat ho padi
Jaise jhil mein lehar aye chanda
jaise bheed mein apne ka kandha
jaise manmauji nadiya
jhaag udaye kuch kahe
jaise baithe baithe meethi si jhapki
jaise pyar ki dheemi si thapki
jaise kaanon mein sargam
hardam bajti hi rahe
jaise barkha udati hai bundiya…
kho na jaaayeeee yehhhh
Kho na jaayee yehh
kho na jaayee yehh
kho na jaayee yehhhh..
Friday, June 27, 2008
Good Feeling
Today is so different. I am very comfortable and feeling refreshed. Its been a while that I had such a feeling. There was the time when every evening I use to feel so refresh. I had all the time in my life. Now, the days go so fast. This week I didn't even realize that how fast the week got over.
I keep smiling for no good reason. After a long time I came back to my life.
Life has so much to give you. You don't live for others but for yourself. There are so many things that you like and that you want to achieve. You know that you got that thing in you. You have that special gife to be so different and to work so differently. This one thing is the motivation for you. You know everytime when you bring that different tough in your work and it brings so much happiness to you.
You don't do stuff just for the sake of doing it. You bring life into your work. When I was doing my internship in India, I was noticed by one of the director of the firm. He always looked so special to me. I always wanted to work under him. I never knew that such small dreams do come true. He looked at my work and kind of impressed. I think it was more of my sincerity than my work. But whatever, he asked me to work for him. And I got that opportunity that I was looking for. I learnt a lot working under him. He is very creative. I didn't know that untill I saw him doing rendering for one of the presentation drawing. He gave me all the opportunity to learn. I was lucky. I always am lucky. Something made him say that 'someday, I will be a great person and that I will forget about him'. I think I can never forget about him. He is the first person who looked at me the way I am and found the true me. I saw a father figure in him.
Those are something which you carry with you. You always meet many people in your life. Not everyone are able to know you. Even the very close friend of you don't really know much about you. But there are those few people, who can see you.
In the first year of my undergrad, I got an award for the design studio. It was something special for me. I tried to bring a different concept into my design. What I learnt about myself is that I have an ability to bring something from inside. Most of us look around and get inspired. Everyone need to get start from somewhere. We all look for some example. But I try not to look into existing things. I try to think and not look into examples b'coz I believe that if you look at the examples, you get baised in your ideas.
I like to start from the scratch. Just give me sometime and leave me alone with my sketchbook and the design problem. I believe that I can be very innovative.
I want to live my life as an Architect and not so much as a Planner. It is hard in US to get a job of an Archtect b'coz I got my degree from India. I want to go back to India so that I can be an Architect. I did planning to get to know the remaining part of the story of the design process. It was a good journey here studing urban planning. I enjoyed taking 6 courses and working as a TA for two classes in the same semester. It drived me crazy many times. But I found that I work more efficiently and creatively when I am under pressure.
I literally enjoyed all the three semester here. It was only in the last semester that I didn't work much and even delayed my thesis. I don't know whom to blame. It was just a bad time for me and I hope that everything get fine. Things do get fine with the time.
I was always lucky to had good friends. Although, some of my best friends are no more with me. Some of them left because I stopped talking to them, others decided not to talk to me. We all do mistakes. We are here in this world because we are not perfect. No one of us are really a bad person as such. We all are victim of time.
I keep smiling for no good reason. After a long time I came back to my life.
Life has so much to give you. You don't live for others but for yourself. There are so many things that you like and that you want to achieve. You know that you got that thing in you. You have that special gife to be so different and to work so differently. This one thing is the motivation for you. You know everytime when you bring that different tough in your work and it brings so much happiness to you.
You don't do stuff just for the sake of doing it. You bring life into your work. When I was doing my internship in India, I was noticed by one of the director of the firm. He always looked so special to me. I always wanted to work under him. I never knew that such small dreams do come true. He looked at my work and kind of impressed. I think it was more of my sincerity than my work. But whatever, he asked me to work for him. And I got that opportunity that I was looking for. I learnt a lot working under him. He is very creative. I didn't know that untill I saw him doing rendering for one of the presentation drawing. He gave me all the opportunity to learn. I was lucky. I always am lucky. Something made him say that 'someday, I will be a great person and that I will forget about him'. I think I can never forget about him. He is the first person who looked at me the way I am and found the true me. I saw a father figure in him.
Those are something which you carry with you. You always meet many people in your life. Not everyone are able to know you. Even the very close friend of you don't really know much about you. But there are those few people, who can see you.
In the first year of my undergrad, I got an award for the design studio. It was something special for me. I tried to bring a different concept into my design. What I learnt about myself is that I have an ability to bring something from inside. Most of us look around and get inspired. Everyone need to get start from somewhere. We all look for some example. But I try not to look into existing things. I try to think and not look into examples b'coz I believe that if you look at the examples, you get baised in your ideas.
I like to start from the scratch. Just give me sometime and leave me alone with my sketchbook and the design problem. I believe that I can be very innovative.
I want to live my life as an Architect and not so much as a Planner. It is hard in US to get a job of an Archtect b'coz I got my degree from India. I want to go back to India so that I can be an Architect. I did planning to get to know the remaining part of the story of the design process. It was a good journey here studing urban planning. I enjoyed taking 6 courses and working as a TA for two classes in the same semester. It drived me crazy many times. But I found that I work more efficiently and creatively when I am under pressure.
I literally enjoyed all the three semester here. It was only in the last semester that I didn't work much and even delayed my thesis. I don't know whom to blame. It was just a bad time for me and I hope that everything get fine. Things do get fine with the time.
I was always lucky to had good friends. Although, some of my best friends are no more with me. Some of them left because I stopped talking to them, others decided not to talk to me. We all do mistakes. We are here in this world because we are not perfect. No one of us are really a bad person as such. We all are victim of time.
Thursday, June 26, 2008
Dil Hai Ke Manta Nahi
Dil hai ke manta nahin
Mushkil badi hai rasme mohabbat
Yeh jaanta hi nahin
Oh, dil hai ke manta nahin
Dil hai ke manta nahin
Yeh beqaraari kyoon ho rahi hai
Yeh jaanta hi nahin
Ho, dil hai ke manta nahin
Dil hai ke manta nahin
Dil to yeh chaahe har pal tumhe hum
Bas yunhi dekha kare
Marke bhi hum na tumse judaa ho
Aao kuch aisa kare
Mujh mein sama jaa, aa paas aa jaa
Hamdam mere hamnasheen
Dil hai ke manta nahin
Teri vafaaye, teri mohabbat
Sab kuch hai mere liye
Tune diya hai nazraana dil ko
Hum to hai tere liye
Yeh baat sach hai, sab jaante hai
Tumko bhi hai yeh yakeen
Dil hai ke manta nahin
Mushkil badi hai rasme mohabbat
Yeh jaanta hi nahin
Oh, dil hai ke manta nahin
Dil hai ke manta nahin
by Faaiz Anwar
Mushkil badi hai rasme mohabbat
Yeh jaanta hi nahin
Oh, dil hai ke manta nahin
Dil hai ke manta nahin
Yeh beqaraari kyoon ho rahi hai
Yeh jaanta hi nahin
Ho, dil hai ke manta nahin
Dil hai ke manta nahin
Dil to yeh chaahe har pal tumhe hum
Bas yunhi dekha kare
Marke bhi hum na tumse judaa ho
Aao kuch aisa kare
Mujh mein sama jaa, aa paas aa jaa
Hamdam mere hamnasheen
Dil hai ke manta nahin
Teri vafaaye, teri mohabbat
Sab kuch hai mere liye
Tune diya hai nazraana dil ko
Hum to hai tere liye
Yeh baat sach hai, sab jaante hai
Tumko bhi hai yeh yakeen
Dil hai ke manta nahin
Mushkil badi hai rasme mohabbat
Yeh jaanta hi nahin
Oh, dil hai ke manta nahin
Dil hai ke manta nahin
by Faaiz Anwar
This is how it is
Why do we spend our time
thinking about someone who may not even care anymore
Why we wait
and wait
and try to keep our memories as fresh as possible
Why we feel so connected
when we know its all gone
Why we feel that someone will understand
and as if its all gonna be fine the next morning
Why we don't except that
it was a mistake
and if not
then why are not we together
why did we meet at it first place
why why why
there are no one to answer any of these whys
and still we keep asking why this, why that,
This is how it is
when you are rejected
thinking about someone who may not even care anymore
Why we wait
and wait
and try to keep our memories as fresh as possible
Why we feel so connected
when we know its all gone
Why we feel that someone will understand
and as if its all gonna be fine the next morning
Why we don't except that
it was a mistake
and if not
then why are not we together
why did we meet at it first place
why why why
there are no one to answer any of these whys
and still we keep asking why this, why that,
This is how it is
when you are rejected
Wednesday, June 25, 2008
Tuesday, June 24, 2008
Woaw! So much work
I was sleeping for almost two months and now when I woke up, all I see is work. So much of pending work! It's driving me crazy. The problem is with my sleeping habits. Before I use to work late and so use to get sufficient time to do the stuff. But now, I sleep early around 11. I get up around 8 and try to study but it doesn't work. I ended up not doing much in the morning and then I have to go to work. I need to through my morning laziness away and focus at least 2 hours into my thesis to finish it. My thesis chair might be wondering that why this guy didn't sent me any updates from last three weeks. Hehe!! Can't help it....I will take one more week before I send him some progress.
Yeah, I came to know that I will be able to stay in US once my OPT gets over and for the time I might be waiting for my H-1. Actually, if I get my company applied H-1 for me on the 1st April'09, there are chances for me to get the acknowledgment letter with in a month and once I get the acknowledgement letter, I will be able to say here for the time I will be out of my OPT period until I get my H-1 in October. I need to get the acknowledgment letter before 15th May'09.
Somewhere Over the Rainbow
Somewhere over the rainbow
Way up high,
There's a land that I heard of
Once in a lullaby.
Somewhere over the rainbow
Skies are blue,
And the dreams that you dare to dream
Really do come true.
Someday I'll wish upon a star
And wake up where the clouds are far
Behind me.
Where troubles melt like lemon drops
Away above the chimney tops
That's where you'll find me.
Somewhere over the rainbow
Bluebirds fly.
Birds fly over the rainbow.
Why then, oh why can't I?
If happy little bluebirds fly
Beyond the rainbow
Why, oh why can't I?
music by Harold Arlen and lyrics by E.Y. Harburg
Way up high,
There's a land that I heard of
Once in a lullaby.
Somewhere over the rainbow
Skies are blue,
And the dreams that you dare to dream
Really do come true.
Someday I'll wish upon a star
And wake up where the clouds are far
Behind me.
Where troubles melt like lemon drops
Away above the chimney tops
That's where you'll find me.
Somewhere over the rainbow
Bluebirds fly.
Birds fly over the rainbow.
Why then, oh why can't I?
If happy little bluebirds fly
Beyond the rainbow
Why, oh why can't I?
music by Harold Arlen and lyrics by E.Y. Harburg
Monday, June 23, 2008
Awesome Food!!
Today, my sister invited some of her friends and so she is preparing lots of delicious food. I am helping her. We are almost finished with preparing most of the stuff. Hmmm
Its been a long time and I really like puri and chole, gulab jamun, and dhai bada....
I actually wanted to invite some of my friends as well. But it was my sister's plan and so I thought may be some other time. One of my friend is getting bored and I was thinking to invite him. But its ok. He will anyway will not come..............
Its been a long time and I really like puri and chole, gulab jamun, and dhai bada....
I actually wanted to invite some of my friends as well. But it was my sister's plan and so I thought may be some other time. One of my friend is getting bored and I was thinking to invite him. But its ok. He will anyway will not come..............
Sunday, June 22, 2008
Forget about it
hmmmm.........I was about to write something.......but leave it.....I am not in a mood! But it was something positive and good.......may be some other time.....
Victim of Time
It's in your mind
and this world has nothing to do with it
You have to fight
with no one but yourself
It is better to be aloof
than to take a refuge in someone
and this world has nothing to do with it
You have to fight
with no one but yourself
It is better to be aloof
than to take a refuge in someone
Saturday, June 21, 2008
Eddie Vedder: Long Nights
Have no fear
For when I'm alone
I'll be better off than I was before
I've got this light
I'll be around to grow
Who I was before
I cannot recall
Long nights allow me to feel...I'm falling...I am falling
The lights go out
Let me feel
I'm falling
I am falling safely to the ground
Ah...I'll take this soul that's inside me now
Like a brand new friend
I'll forever know
I've got this light
And the will to show
I will always be better than before
Long nights allow me to feel...I'm falling...I am falling
The lights go out
Let me feel
I'm falling
I am falling safely to the ground
We can be Happy
Happiness doesn't come with
money, or anything
It is something you get when you seek for it
You got whole a lot of reason to be happy
the most important one is that
if you are happy, you can make others happy
Try to consider your problems as small as possible
and see how much others are suffering in this world.
you will find yourself always better off
Take some courage and stop focusing on your little issues
and make this world a better place
This is your society
your people
your kind
and even others
consider them and
feel love and compassion
Stop looking troubled
and get some confidence within youself
to be some help
You are capable of doing many things
and if you are not doing anything than
you actually is wasted
and yeah, you are wasting everything
money, or anything
It is something you get when you seek for it
You got whole a lot of reason to be happy
the most important one is that
if you are happy, you can make others happy
Try to consider your problems as small as possible
and see how much others are suffering in this world.
you will find yourself always better off
Take some courage and stop focusing on your little issues
and make this world a better place
This is your society
your people
your kind
and even others
consider them and
feel love and compassion
Stop looking troubled
and get some confidence within youself
to be some help
You are capable of doing many things
and if you are not doing anything than
you actually is wasted
and yeah, you are wasting everything
Falling Leaf
Another falling leaf
got separate from the branch
to dry.....
Remember
those days when
you enjoyed those sunshine, rain,
and the fresh wind from the southeast
Now you got to leave
Remember
those happy moments when
the sun and the sky played hide & sick
Its all over
Remember
when few strange birds
who came to your house and
sang a song of hope
You will miss them all
You can float if you are lucky
and if it rain
you can fly if you are lucky
and if it wind
But you got to know that
you are falling
and that you will dry
you may still enjoy the floating and the flying
but you know that you got separated
and so you will be carried away
to the place where everyone is stranger
Still in your few last moments
you can feel the soil
and smell it
when you are laying on it's shoulder
but you got separated
from the world you liked
and so, it will all be an imagination
and you will dry up with not doing anything
but simply waiting
Falling leaf
you got nothing
got separate from the branch
to dry.....
Remember
those days when
you enjoyed those sunshine, rain,
and the fresh wind from the southeast
Now you got to leave
Remember
those happy moments when
the sun and the sky played hide & sick
Its all over
Remember
when few strange birds
who came to your house and
sang a song of hope
You will miss them all
You can float if you are lucky
and if it rain
you can fly if you are lucky
and if it wind
But you got to know that
you are falling
and that you will dry
you may still enjoy the floating and the flying
but you know that you got separated
and so you will be carried away
to the place where everyone is stranger
Still in your few last moments
you can feel the soil
and smell it
when you are laying on it's shoulder
but you got separated
from the world you liked
and so, it will all be an imagination
and you will dry up with not doing anything
but simply waiting
Falling leaf
you got nothing
No I won't let you leave my love behind
Everybody's talkin' at me
I don't hear a word they're sayin'
Only the echoes of my mind
People stopping, staring
I can't see their faces
Only the shadows of their eyes
I'm going where the sun keeps shining
Through the pouring rain
Going where the weather suits my clothes
Backing off the north east wind
Sailing on a summer breeze
And skipping over the ocean like a stone
No I won't let you leave my love behind
No I won't let you leave my love behind
Something left Incomplete
I am so tired tonight....
got few drinks at my friend's place
If I close my eyes, I can easily fall into sleep
but I don't want to sleep
something is left incomplete
it's been incomplete from last few days
when I wake up in the morning
I don't feel like starting another day
but we have to pull the life
the only reason
to carry on is that there are others
who are living for you
life ask for more sacrifices
got few drinks at my friend's place
If I close my eyes, I can easily fall into sleep
but I don't want to sleep
something is left incomplete
it's been incomplete from last few days
when I wake up in the morning
I don't feel like starting another day
but we have to pull the life
the only reason
to carry on is that there are others
who are living for you
life ask for more sacrifices
Friday, June 20, 2008
You Know It
When things goes wrong
and everything looks out of your control
You have to listen to your inner voice
Though outside you got this fear
that it will become apparant
and that you will get into some big trouble
and you stop listening to yourself
that you still will be ok
and that just let it go
and wait
All you need to do is
stop questioning and finding answers
b'coz there are no right answers to certain questions
Just let it go
and wait
and everything looks out of your control
You have to listen to your inner voice
Though outside you got this fear
that it will become apparant
and that you will get into some big trouble
and you stop listening to yourself
that you still will be ok
and that just let it go
and wait
All you need to do is
stop questioning and finding answers
b'coz there are no right answers to certain questions
Just let it go
and wait
Thursday, June 19, 2008
Good to know Flaws of Being Left-handed
I always felt very bad about about my handwriting. I know that I am left-handy but still was not convience that I can't write better. When I start reading about left-handed flaws, I felt very comfortable. I realize that it is not my mistake but the system. In our society we write from left to right. Lefties always struggle writing that way. Its because there hand get congested and their angle of writing also changes because of less space available for the proper movement of hand. For lefties, writing right to left is natural. I initially got so much annoyed that I will have to write left to right all my life even though I am gonna screw my handwriting. But with the time I stop worring about my handwriting and start typing than writing most of the time. It still hurts, but we have to draw a line to our problems.
I was below the class average when I was kid. There was something about reading textbook which I found very hard to focus. My mom use to read textbooks for me. Although, no body had any idea that why I didn't like to study. I was poor in literatures. Didn't like history. I liked maths and physics though. But I do lot of calculation mistakes. I always asked myself that why even after doing most of the calculations correct in my exams, I get low marks. I never noticed that it was my writing problem. I use to miss write certain numbers and that is why get wrong results. I didn't know that and so start getting depressed that I am a poor student. Infact, I lost my confidence many time. I can relate this problem with dyslexia but not sure.
Most of the people are confident only because of their memory itself. I would have enjoyed that part at least. But I got poor memory. I don't know if it relates to my left-hand thing. Science always felt short to answer many questions related to your brain functioning. More so, for left-handed brain functioning. Although it is certain that left-handed uses more of their right-side of mind, the problems we face in our daily life is not explained. You can guess, I am bad with names, details, and numbers.
Still there is something about me which stands me out in the crowd. The few things which I like but not really an expert in are drawing, singing, writing, dancing, playing guitar, and field hockey. I believe that if I get a chance or I put some effort to learn any of these activities from a learnt person, I can be very good at them. Oh, another quality I have is that I am good at following leasons and is very sincere. because I have to spend more time than an average guy in my studies, I always get less time and find it hard to manage other activities. I want to reach to that point where I dont have to worry a lot about my work and then I could spend time on what I really like and enjoy.
It is always surprising that people notice me a lot and always see something in me. But I still feel that I lack few normal skills which drive me crazy most of the time when I am in public.
It is for sure that I am not abnormal but different. I have lot of simpathy for my types (specially when they are kids and not aware about what is so different about them).
I was below the class average when I was kid. There was something about reading textbook which I found very hard to focus. My mom use to read textbooks for me. Although, no body had any idea that why I didn't like to study. I was poor in literatures. Didn't like history. I liked maths and physics though. But I do lot of calculation mistakes. I always asked myself that why even after doing most of the calculations correct in my exams, I get low marks. I never noticed that it was my writing problem. I use to miss write certain numbers and that is why get wrong results. I didn't know that and so start getting depressed that I am a poor student. Infact, I lost my confidence many time. I can relate this problem with dyslexia but not sure.
Most of the people are confident only because of their memory itself. I would have enjoyed that part at least. But I got poor memory. I don't know if it relates to my left-hand thing. Science always felt short to answer many questions related to your brain functioning. More so, for left-handed brain functioning. Although it is certain that left-handed uses more of their right-side of mind, the problems we face in our daily life is not explained. You can guess, I am bad with names, details, and numbers.
Still there is something about me which stands me out in the crowd. The few things which I like but not really an expert in are drawing, singing, writing, dancing, playing guitar, and field hockey. I believe that if I get a chance or I put some effort to learn any of these activities from a learnt person, I can be very good at them. Oh, another quality I have is that I am good at following leasons and is very sincere. because I have to spend more time than an average guy in my studies, I always get less time and find it hard to manage other activities. I want to reach to that point where I dont have to worry a lot about my work and then I could spend time on what I really like and enjoy.
It is always surprising that people notice me a lot and always see something in me. But I still feel that I lack few normal skills which drive me crazy most of the time when I am in public.
It is for sure that I am not abnormal but different. I have lot of simpathy for my types (specially when they are kids and not aware about what is so different about them).
Wednesday, June 18, 2008
Kill The Hidden Monkey
There is a hidden weakness in everyone
We pretend to be strong unless the monkey take you over
This monkey is not yours
He reside in you and is against your happiness
We always try to avoid him
but he keep waiting for the time when he can take a lead on you
When you are in need
He reminds you of him and act like he is your friend
No, he is not a friend
Never let him comeout
He can destroy everything
Morethan you, he attacks those whom you love
Since he resides in you, he know you well
he knows that how you will be tortured
Kill him
He don't deserve any simpathy
Kill the monkey and you will be better off
We pretend to be strong unless the monkey take you over
This monkey is not yours
He reside in you and is against your happiness
We always try to avoid him
but he keep waiting for the time when he can take a lead on you
When you are in need
He reminds you of him and act like he is your friend
No, he is not a friend
Never let him comeout
He can destroy everything
Morethan you, he attacks those whom you love
Since he resides in you, he know you well
he knows that how you will be tortured
Kill him
He don't deserve any simpathy
Kill the monkey and you will be better off
Monday, June 16, 2008
Lost Faith
It always looks so dramatic
until it become a reality
We keep our respect high
and the dignity.....
for which we work and sacrifice
but someday it all goes
and leave nothing but a shame
when someone start looking at you
as you appear and as you make sense
they start loosing faith in you
that is why we don't like people judging
they feel that you can do better
and that you are over-reacting
if there is no string which binds you to this world
then this is the time you like to say goodbye
but you become a joke
b'coz you look like a joker
This joker runs openly
and make you realize that you can only be a slave
your half is sleeping and the other half is not interested in anything
like you are an incomplete person
How hard it is to loose someone
you will never know even if you have lost someone
b'coz if you know, you will dare to loose anyone anymore
Life is holding broken pieces together
and keep trying to fix them all
unless you get another crack
this is how it is
when someone lost faith in you
until it become a reality
We keep our respect high
and the dignity.....
for which we work and sacrifice
but someday it all goes
and leave nothing but a shame
when someone start looking at you
as you appear and as you make sense
they start loosing faith in you
that is why we don't like people judging
they feel that you can do better
and that you are over-reacting
if there is no string which binds you to this world
then this is the time you like to say goodbye
but you become a joke
b'coz you look like a joker
This joker runs openly
and make you realize that you can only be a slave
your half is sleeping and the other half is not interested in anything
like you are an incomplete person
How hard it is to loose someone
you will never know even if you have lost someone
b'coz if you know, you will dare to loose anyone anymore
Life is holding broken pieces together
and keep trying to fix them all
unless you get another crack
this is how it is
when someone lost faith in you
The Wall
life is full of confusion
we walk to the path we already know is not taking us anywhere
we try to convince ourself that this is what we need
we creat our own world, although these is no such thing
we get addicted
we surprise
and until it all become so real
on your way is something you already thought about
that is why you fear
you know that its gonna happen
but you try to get some confidence by not accpeting it
you listen only what you want to
and dont really what you should
everything which matters in real
become so unreal and kind of burden
but it all has to go some day
b'coz its the law of nature
it changes
everything changes
there will always be time you will enjoy
there will always be time when people will love you
there will always be reasons to be happy
until you break the wall
the wall holding you from going back home
the wall keeps everyone away from you
the wall stops you from working
the wall stops people from loving you
the wall should fall, not you
b'coz you cannot be like this forever
we walk to the path we already know is not taking us anywhere
we try to convince ourself that this is what we need
we creat our own world, although these is no such thing
we get addicted
we surprise
and until it all become so real
on your way is something you already thought about
that is why you fear
you know that its gonna happen
but you try to get some confidence by not accpeting it
you listen only what you want to
and dont really what you should
everything which matters in real
become so unreal and kind of burden
but it all has to go some day
b'coz its the law of nature
it changes
everything changes
there will always be time you will enjoy
there will always be time when people will love you
there will always be reasons to be happy
until you break the wall
the wall holding you from going back home
the wall keeps everyone away from you
the wall stops you from working
the wall stops people from loving you
the wall should fall, not you
b'coz you cannot be like this forever
Sunday, June 15, 2008
My lost Spirit
So many moments keep reflecting back in my mind
They appear like a live image
How do I remove them from my life?
How do I convince my heart?
There are so many things to do in a life
Why then I see that there is no other choice
Can someone knock into my life and shake the still moments
Make alive my lost spirit
The spirit which brought me here from the place I could hardly see the world
Like a pet, living with its feeling rejected
Being a part of your life when you are alone
But dependent on you
Still get love even when not needed b'coz they can't complain
Reflecting back into my life
I only want to remember the time when I was kid
With the time I learned
That a proper guiding force is very important in a life
To grow healthy and naturally
One has to learn to respect his own life
And others as well to grow in this society
And also need to understand that
Nothing last for a long time
If you don't keep things right
They appear like a live image
How do I remove them from my life?
How do I convince my heart?
There are so many things to do in a life
Why then I see that there is no other choice
Can someone knock into my life and shake the still moments
Make alive my lost spirit
The spirit which brought me here from the place I could hardly see the world
Like a pet, living with its feeling rejected
Being a part of your life when you are alone
But dependent on you
Still get love even when not needed b'coz they can't complain
Reflecting back into my life
I only want to remember the time when I was kid
With the time I learned
That a proper guiding force is very important in a life
To grow healthy and naturally
One has to learn to respect his own life
And others as well to grow in this society
And also need to understand that
Nothing last for a long time
If you don't keep things right
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